1/11/22

Hello

It’s been awhile, and it’ll be a while yet.
I’ve been afraid to change for so long. Even when I am changing, I am afraid.
I’m afraid.

I know a lot of certain things, but I do not feel them.
This creates all manner of doubt and internal conflict.
I spend most of my time in my head, debating and pleading at a lectern for myself to be convinced.

I am a distrustful jury, so even if I am making relevant points, they linger in the air like a faint ocean breeze.
I know I will eventually win this case, and when I look in the mirror I will see MY face.
I am patient. I am intelligent. I am kind.

Buckle up, Jury.
We’re just about to get to the good part.